Family drama...

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So the holidays are upon us, and for once in a few years I am happy to say I will not be working!

I am off from Dec 24th to the 27th and then again from December 30th to January 3rd.

And during this time, I will be spending Christmas at my mom's house. I cannot wait! I'll be arriving on Christmas Eve and staying through til the 27th of December.

This will be my first Christmas spent with my family because I was in retail where we were open every Christmas Day and then in a call centre that also remains open for the few people that call in on Christmas Day.

The holidays will be eventful as my younger sister and her daughter are coming out with me. The last six months things have been estranged between my mother and sister, so we'll see what happens...

Aren't the holidays always hectic ???

Words Left Unsaid...

Return To Me

As the sun casts shadows that fall across the front steps
I sit and wait
Wondering when he'll return
If he is ever coming home again
Some days I'll hear his voice sweetly calling my name
I feel his presence at times
Yet when I turn around, no one's there
And I am left all alone
The wind echoes your laughter
Everywhere I see remnants of you
What happened to make you leave me ?
I miss you listening to my prayers
Helping me to believe dreams can come true
I need your strong silent strength
To guide me through the tears
I wonder if you hear the wishes I make on the stars
Of if you know how much I love you
Words not spoken often enough
If I had forgiven your mistakes then,
Would you be here with me now ?
If I tell you how sorry I am,
Sorry I did not understand
I was just a child wanting her father's love
As I look in the mirror,
I no longer see your little girl
Staring back at me
But your daughter, a grown woman
And although no longer a child,
I still wish you would come back to me Daddy
To fill the ache missing you inflicts on my heart
And I realize yet again that you'll never arrive to greet me
As I wait upon our front steps.

~ chp ~

Miss you now & always Daddy, RIP December 19th, 1990